o well fers things fers i haf decided to delete mi previous post cos yaa.. no matter how bad i feel i did realise dat i shld nver write dese kinda stuff cos it's nt mi to do so.. i wont eva use dat word again.. cos i feel veri remorseful after using it.. sumhow.. it made mi feel worse... well it nver feels gd doing things against ur conscience.. it's weird how i despise pple hu use it all the time.. yet i use it wen moments get desperate..

TODAY WAS FINALLY THE DAY.. 11TH DEC 2006.. DEFINITELY A DAY TO REMEMBER...
im glad i had a nice tok wif puen at the balcony.. well jing. if ur house was a hotel.. i wld give it FIVE STARS.. haha..((:
sorted things out.. toked abt stuff.. o wells.. i tot i gave up but actly i dint.. but it doesn mean dat i havent given up means dat i will cont'd holding on.. HEH(: aniwaes dats for us to noe n for u to guess
um yaa.. we cooked.. successful((: cos jo-chef was dere.. steak.. alcohol.. potatoes... seafood rings.. sum cheese fish fingers.. fried potato skins.. well mi jiu liang is damn gd seriously.. one day if gt chance i hope mi n debby n jolyn can haf a competition n see hu gets knocked out fers.. mi jiu liang r alr better than guys older than mi..
i dno wad happened actly i jus remembered toking non-stop.. like noone's business.. den eating den toking..
den now i can only remember that we went to the guest room.. on the air-con to full blast.. den six of us sit down n haf deep tok.. um.. hmm.. yaa.. dat's all.. jus felt more dere..
let's jus say that the six of us haf weathered thru storm lah okay.. as in it's wen we survive ordeals dat the frenship bcums stronger rite? at least everything is resolved.. n ya.. i did learn dat the thing is to face up n solve it tgt..

but hmm... u noe certain things i cannot face it up alone miself.. i dno i jus feel like nt dat i dint try b4.. i did try.. at dis pointa time.. althou i noe u'll b reading dis.. i feel like im on the verge of giving up even thou u're trying now.. cos i suddenly feel like damn tired.. mayb it has drag for too long..

dese few days i realised dat actly i veri old alr.. HAHA.. so funny as in im maturing into an adult soon.. den alotta things can happen like i can learn to drive n go get a car... i can go watch M18 shows.. im actly old enuff to go into a relationship...

u noe women need to learn to b independent.. esp. in times wen nobody is dere to help dem.. was watching dis show today.. called enough.. wif the gals.. yaa.. den i tink i veri mei yong.. cos i go home alone oso scared.. esp. wen i walked dat stretch of empty n dark path baq to mi condo frm alljunied mrt.. i was running n running n running den i dare nt look back.. until i saw one n a gal kissing on a bench.. but i still cont'd running.. i was super scared lah okay.. n i was tinking of the long haired gal on 158bus i saw wif the rest.. den i oso scared later go sum old uncle tailing frm coffee shop.. nt dat it has nver happened b4 okay..
aniwaes.. i was jus simply SCARED...

other den dat... the day was great.. performance during trng was shit.. but yaa.. i met mi other coach today called Mr Tang hu's extremely patient n extremely nice.. n yesh.. i better get mi punt kick rite so dat i dont let him down..(: